More on Life

So I realize this piggy backs right off of my last one, but I thought it needed to be said.
I checked my phone when I got back up to my room and saw a friend had called. I had, of course, not heard it seeing my phone was on vibrate and i was downstairs. It was one of the friends from the last post. He said he was thinking of me and missed me. Well, does he not think of me more than once every, oh, three weeks? Because I think of him a lot more than that. It really hurts me when I get those calls.
I get tired of trying so hard and basically getting nothing in return. I feel like a horrible person for, basically, giving up. But it has come to the point where I'm getting hurt because I try and get nothing. I haven't talked to my best friend since New Years. I haven't talked to him since before that. Another friend I talk to sporadically... and it's for about 5 minutes online, but it's better than nothing. Plus she checks on me to make sure I'm okay. Does this make me a bad person, though? I really feel like one....

On another note, I got to spend time with three of my favourite sisters last night. We went out to dinner and then were supposed to go out to TDX...that however didn't happen. One is now a cripple for all intensive purposes and she wasn't allowed out, so we stayed and watched movies. I'm really glad now that I didn't go out. I ended up feeling like crap and just hurting all over. Not a fun time. So I went to bed and slept for oh, tenish hours. Just what I needed. It really did recharge me physically and emotionally. Especailly after I broke down in the middle of Yankee Candle. o.O I saw I black kitty ornament with a halo and wings and literally started crying right there. But I'm okay now.

I do however miss home a lot right now. I don't really know why... Maybe because my Daddy told me he missed me. He doesn't ever do that. It's amazing what little things like that can do.

Okay. Neurobio and Plants are calling my name. I must go.
Enjoy the day and live it up to all it is worth.
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